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Im sorry i fell in love with you.

I don’t mean to smother you.

Brush it off, but i can’t shake it

It still runs through my head everyday. I don’t know what to believe and what is real or not. You did a fantastic job fooling me, I can’t even tell if this is real. It all feels like a dream with sunshines and rainbows. If it was real, would you keep photos of you an him? Or a bracelet with his name on it? Maybe you just forgot. That’s what I’d like to believe and that’s probably what you’d tell me. How could you forget something like that? I haven’t forgotten. I already forgave you for it, but it still runs through my mind constantly. I can’t forget the pictures, the messages, and the texts. I’m still broken. You’re putting me back together, but slower than ever. How can I trust that you aren’t still talking to him? Last time you said you weren’t, you were doing it right in front of my face. I want to see everything you have. I want proof that you aren’t talking to him, because honestly, your word isn’t enough anymore and no amount of ‘i love yous’ or apologies will be enough to fill this gaping hole you pierced me with. I’m left vulnerable and insecure.

I just can’t get you off my mind
And why would I even try?
Cuz even when I close my eyes
I dream about you all the time

I just always wanna have you right here by my side.
The future’s near but never certain
So please stay here for just tonight.

I musta done something right
To deserve you in my life
I musta done something right
Along the way

And even if the moon fell down tonight
There’d be nothing to worry about at all
Because you make the whole world shine
As long as you’re here everything will be alright

I’ll be fine as long as i’m with you.

I’ve thought for a long time that this was happening. I’m glad I finally found the truth, though I had to be shady about it. Of course, trust has gone out the window. It still doesn’t change anything. I don’t want to forget these feelings I have about you. I just want to move on from this and be happy with you again, like I know we can. This honestly, does take the cake, but not every relationship is always perfect. We can only learn from this and grow. We can only keep trying to keep together what everyone says we should move on from. I won’t give up. Even after all of this. All these months. You ask how i could still want to be with you, and honestly, it’s not your adorable looks, it’s not that I don’t want to be alone. It’s the love you’ve shown me before. It’s the happiness you’ve given me over and over. It’s the fact that you really do care about me and really do want this to work as much as I do. Even if you say you don’t know what you want. Isn’t it clear that if you’re getting confused about it that you really want it? And not just because you don’t want to be alone either. It’s because the love that i’ve shown you. The happiness that i can give to you. Can we stop hurting each other and move passed this like i know we can? We’ve dealt with our problems. Now let’s reconstruct these walls we tore down. And let’s do it together, like I know we can. Because, I love you. And you love me. So, let’s forget the mistakes we made because everyone has done something wrong one time or another. I forgive you. Please, forgive me.

I want to stay in Cali, but it’s hard out here when you feel so lonely. Maybe, I should return home and try to make a life out there. But, what would these last two years with you be? Memories, or forgotten love?

Here we are again

It seems I vent to you everyday, for no one to read, but just to get it out. Why won’t you talk to me? Was it something I did? I realize we aren’t okay right now, but some effort would help our situation. Pushing me away isn’t changing anything. All day I hurt inside. All day I question what I should do. I don’t want to do any of that. I want to look past this. The past is the past for a reason and you aren’t apart of that. You’re apart of the present and the future. So, act like it, please, because this is getting us nowhere :/

It’s a tuggle war between what’s comfortable and what she really wants.

There are so many things I want to ask and bring up, but I’m afraid it will push you away, and I really don’t want that. So, I’ll keep holding it in until I eventually forget about it. It’s not as easy as I thought it would be to just let it go and you’ll have to earn my trust again, because it’s hard to stop thinking it isn’t happening now. You’ll have to prove it to me, somehow. All I can think in my head for now is that it’s going on right in front of me and I’m too blind by loving you to notice it. Please, don’t play me :/

I wish we could go back. I feel like I’m struggling to maintain this. I don’t even feel close anymore. Everything we’ve done feels just like it never even mattered. I’m scared. I’m lost. I can’t keep seeing you for a couple hours a week. I can’t keep having these thoughts. I just can’t do this anymore. I’m losing my composure and every bit of happiness I felt. I’m crazy. I’m off. I don’t know what you expect from me when I don’t even get what I expect from you. What happened to you? What happened to me? Where did we stray off course? Where am I even going anymore? I set my future to play around you, but your future is set to go even farther away. What am I doing? I can’t see the road anymore. Everything is foggy. I’m broken. Why?

Why is there always a song for exactly how you feel? This one is mine. I didn’t think i could relate to this one. Ever.


I wasn’t even ready to say goodbye,
It seemed like that kiss lasted forever
But didn’t last long enough,
You are the hope that resides in me

I hope this goes well, cause for a long time
I will be living in hell away from you
And I ask myself ‘is that something I can do?’

I wasn’t even ready to say goodbye,
It seemed like that kiss lasted forever
But didn’t last long enough,
We will continue in tune and it will be
Full of the warmth we shared so far
And it wasn’t easy to walk into the car
Could you please give me something to hold on to?
Something deep that will remind me of you

With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep
With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep

With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep
With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep

I wasn’t even ready to say goodbye,
It seemed like that kiss lasted (lasted, lasted) forever
But didn’t last long enough,
You are the hope that resides in me
(with your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep)
And the next time, I drift off to sleep,
I hope you will be the next thing I see
(with your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep)

Im sorry i fell in love with you.

I don’t mean to smother you.

Brush it off, but i can’t shake it

It still runs through my head everyday. I don’t know what to believe and what is real or not. You did a fantastic job fooling me, I can’t even tell if this is real. It all feels like a dream with sunshines and rainbows. If it was real, would you keep photos of you an him? Or a bracelet with his name on it? Maybe you just forgot. That’s what I’d like to believe and that’s probably what you’d tell me. How could you forget something like that? I haven’t forgotten. I already forgave you for it, but it still runs through my mind constantly. I can’t forget the pictures, the messages, and the texts. I’m still broken. You’re putting me back together, but slower than ever. How can I trust that you aren’t still talking to him? Last time you said you weren’t, you were doing it right in front of my face. I want to see everything you have. I want proof that you aren’t talking to him, because honestly, your word isn’t enough anymore and no amount of ‘i love yous’ or apologies will be enough to fill this gaping hole you pierced me with. I’m left vulnerable and insecure.

I just can’t get you off my mind
And why would I even try?
Cuz even when I close my eyes
I dream about you all the time

I just always wanna have you right here by my side.
The future’s near but never certain
So please stay here for just tonight.

I musta done something right
To deserve you in my life
I musta done something right
Along the way

And even if the moon fell down tonight
There’d be nothing to worry about at all
Because you make the whole world shine
As long as you’re here everything will be alright

I’ll be fine as long as i’m with you.

I’ve thought for a long time that this was happening. I’m glad I finally found the truth, though I had to be shady about it. Of course, trust has gone out the window. It still doesn’t change anything. I don’t want to forget these feelings I have about you. I just want to move on from this and be happy with you again, like I know we can. This honestly, does take the cake, but not every relationship is always perfect. We can only learn from this and grow. We can only keep trying to keep together what everyone says we should move on from. I won’t give up. Even after all of this. All these months. You ask how i could still want to be with you, and honestly, it’s not your adorable looks, it’s not that I don’t want to be alone. It’s the love you’ve shown me before. It’s the happiness you’ve given me over and over. It’s the fact that you really do care about me and really do want this to work as much as I do. Even if you say you don’t know what you want. Isn’t it clear that if you’re getting confused about it that you really want it? And not just because you don’t want to be alone either. It’s because the love that i’ve shown you. The happiness that i can give to you. Can we stop hurting each other and move passed this like i know we can? We’ve dealt with our problems. Now let’s reconstruct these walls we tore down. And let’s do it together, like I know we can. Because, I love you. And you love me. So, let’s forget the mistakes we made because everyone has done something wrong one time or another. I forgive you. Please, forgive me.

I want to stay in Cali, but it’s hard out here when you feel so lonely. Maybe, I should return home and try to make a life out there. But, what would these last two years with you be? Memories, or forgotten love?

Here we are again

It seems I vent to you everyday, for no one to read, but just to get it out. Why won’t you talk to me? Was it something I did? I realize we aren’t okay right now, but some effort would help our situation. Pushing me away isn’t changing anything. All day I hurt inside. All day I question what I should do. I don’t want to do any of that. I want to look past this. The past is the past for a reason and you aren’t apart of that. You’re apart of the present and the future. So, act like it, please, because this is getting us nowhere :/

It’s a tuggle war between what’s comfortable and what she really wants.

There are so many things I want to ask and bring up, but I’m afraid it will push you away, and I really don’t want that. So, I’ll keep holding it in until I eventually forget about it. It’s not as easy as I thought it would be to just let it go and you’ll have to earn my trust again, because it’s hard to stop thinking it isn’t happening now. You’ll have to prove it to me, somehow. All I can think in my head for now is that it’s going on right in front of me and I’m too blind by loving you to notice it. Please, don’t play me :/

I wish we could go back. I feel like I’m struggling to maintain this. I don’t even feel close anymore. Everything we’ve done feels just like it never even mattered. I’m scared. I’m lost. I can’t keep seeing you for a couple hours a week. I can’t keep having these thoughts. I just can’t do this anymore. I’m losing my composure and every bit of happiness I felt. I’m crazy. I’m off. I don’t know what you expect from me when I don’t even get what I expect from you. What happened to you? What happened to me? Where did we stray off course? Where am I even going anymore? I set my future to play around you, but your future is set to go even farther away. What am I doing? I can’t see the road anymore. Everything is foggy. I’m broken. Why?

Why is there always a song for exactly how you feel? This one is mine. I didn’t think i could relate to this one. Ever.


I wasn’t even ready to say goodbye,
It seemed like that kiss lasted forever
But didn’t last long enough,
You are the hope that resides in me

I hope this goes well, cause for a long time
I will be living in hell away from you
And I ask myself ‘is that something I can do?’

I wasn’t even ready to say goodbye,
It seemed like that kiss lasted forever
But didn’t last long enough,
We will continue in tune and it will be
Full of the warmth we shared so far
And it wasn’t easy to walk into the car
Could you please give me something to hold on to?
Something deep that will remind me of you

With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep
With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep

With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep
With your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep

I wasn’t even ready to say goodbye,
It seemed like that kiss lasted (lasted, lasted) forever
But didn’t last long enough,
You are the hope that resides in me
(with your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep)
And the next time, I drift off to sleep,
I hope you will be the next thing I see
(with your voice on the phone, I don’t feel so alone
I feel you next to me, breathing in your sleep)

Brush it off, but i can’t shake it
I’ll be fine as long as i’m with you.
Here we are again

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Joey Hill
Beauty is invisible
Love is blind

If we can't escape, we might as well remain.

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